I got on this evening to check when the last time I had written . Wow! Two months ago. Feburary is always hard for me and this year it did not seem to end with Feburary 28th. This has been a hard year already and I am not sure why. Maybe it is because Toni was diagnosed with a "disease" that I know nothing about and can not seem to find any ways of knowing what tomorrow will hold. Or Maybe it is because I do not feel like a friend who gives very much but is constantly taking. I thought I was a good friend but somedays, sometimes it feels as though I am walking on egg shells barefoot. Or amybe it is because I am still fighting the welfare system for Devon and Dylan. I love them with all my heart and it is hard to only see them once a month. Even harder to leave them when they just do not want you to go. The list could go on and on and THEN I stop to wonder... What do I want Toni to remember or get out of all this????? GOD is GOOD and AMAZING!!!! HE is in control! No matter how hard and how many tiems we give up GOD will NEVER give up!!
Thank you GOD for never giving up on me even when I give in !!!! poll by twiigs.com
