In Rememberance

As I woke up this morning I had a dread in my heart, I just wanted to crawl back in bed and stay there for a while. But I could not today, I get to see my great nephews. The dread in my heart comes from November 1st 2005, I lost a very important person in my life, my nephew. He was an awesome young man. Yes he had his problems but don't we all. He was so smart and funny. He had a serious side but you did not get to see it often. The dread in my heart comes from him not being here, him not getting to see his sons. They are awesome little boys. They love to laugh and are so smart. They have a serious side and today I got to see it. I ask myself a peculiar question, do they know? Does the now five year old remember what today three years ago looked like? He was quiet today, maybe he felt deep sorrow down inside of him today and he was not sure why. Maybe he was sick. Maybe he was tired or maybe we just know deep down in our hearts that the one we love and miss left us on this day.

I got to spend time with his sons today!!!!! We went to his grave today! My daughter decided it would be good to put something on his grave in remembrance. For the boys she added two suckers. The kind Jeremy and the big boy used to love to eat together. The baby was only 21 days old when his dad left this earth. In rememberance of my daughter and Jeremy's time together we put pennies. They sat for hours stripping wires to get out the copper.

I watched my great nephews running around today and I have cried knowing their dad would be so proud of them.